31 Weeks!

Here I am at 31 weeks! It feels good to be this far along and to know that we don't have to worry so much about if our little girl is born now. We want her to hang in there longer so she can get nice and chubby and healthy, but we are past the really scary zone. I have been home from the hospital for a week now. I can't believe I was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks! It feels like a dream that never really happened. It's been nice to be home, but I will admit that it is way harder to stay laying down. I'm supposed to be laying down most all the time and I no longer have privileges to leave the house. At least in the hospital I could get out in the wheelchair. At my next followup appointment we are going to ask if they will allow us to at least go out to dinner once a week or something. It does take a toll on my mental state to be in the house all the time for sure. I look forward to doing the most normal things again....like grocery shopping. It's been 3 months since I've stepped foot into a grocery store and I miss it. I went nearly every day before. I like wandering around and picking out my own produce. I can't wait to start cooking again. I know it'll be crazy when the baby gets here and I probably won't feel as much like doing those things as I think, but I'm looking forward to feeling more like myself I guess.

I have a follow up Dr. appointment this next week and then I will be alternating weekly appointments between the high risk specialists and my midwife. I'm really hopeful that we will be able to have a normal delivery with our midwife. They should be able to deliver the baby at 32-34 weeks. I've heard different things from different people, but at least we are getting close to both those weeks. Even if we can't have a full midwife delivery, their practice has said that whoever their on-call midwife is at Vanderbilt Hospital at the time will be there for me since I am still their patient. I have loved every one of the midwives I have met with at their practice and I know I will be comfortable with them there instead of just the on-call doctor whom I may not have even met. My original birth plan was to have a natural birth, but since nothing has gone according to plan....I'm not holding as strongly to it. I'm not sure my body will have the strength or energy to endure a natural birth since I've lost so much strength being on bed rest. But, we will see how it goes. Our midwife wants us to take it as it comes and they are supportive of whatever i decide to do. Maybe with all the trouble this little one has caused so far......she'll decide to take it easy on me and come out nice and easy:)